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06 Jan

I was repeatedly singled out for sexual attention of sexually directed harassment before I was even a teenager.It’s very particular sensation, but hard to describe —for me, it’s almost like nausea mixed with sadness and shock.One of my male friends was standing outside a club when he was hit from behind.

I had an ex boyfriend who said he thought rapists should be subjected to capital punishment, which I suppose is a more extreme articulation of that unconscious belief. People aren’t destroyed through being raped though.

That’s exactly like what happened to me, but I wasn’t…” So, I looked up sexual assault. The guilt, the aversion to touch, and hyposexual desire.

Apparently if someone touches your vagina against your will, that’s sexual assault. I read about what happened emotionally to people who had been sexually assaulted, and a lot of it fit with my experience. They were all common responses from people who had been sexually assaulted. These mysterious things that I had been feeling had a source.

I sat a meditation retreat for 7 days, and the first 5 days were spent crying.

I was completely exhausted, and in discussions with my teacher I basically said “I can’t keep doing this” and she basically said “keep trying.” Then, sometime around the fifth day, I stopped crying. Not totally better, not like, I don’t still cry sometimes.